If you have a special someone in your life that you love, never let a day go by that you don’t appreciate that. Never let a day go by that they don’t know that.
Loneliness eats you alive. And when you start to break down, weaken, die from it, and your rotting soul leaks from your pores, people don’t just not want to be with you. People are repulsed by you. You’re worth less than pity. You are a rot from which no one wants to become infected. There is no healing for you until your soul is dead and composted into a soil ripe for someone else’s new beginning.
I’m so tired of being alone. But I’m also so tired of being bled dry by the people I love, and abandoned once I have nothing left to give… and being forced to spend years feeling so lonely while I try to heal myself from the damage.
I feel I am in a world of babes crying to be fed, and I try to feed them all, but I starve and never die. I long to be held. But no one will touch me. What a world is it when you give so much love and understanding, but none will accept you into their arms and let you cry upon them and hear your reckless words of pain. Except for your mother, thank god for her. You give so much of yourself because you cannot bear the thought of anyone feeling the pain you feel every day. What a life it is to live.
So love your loved ones and appreciate them every day. Especially the people that have come to know you, that you have chosen to share a life with, that they have chosen to share a life with you. You are blessed. Never forget it.